If you were here with me now,
what would I say?
Would I have the nerve to ask for a hug?
Would I be so bold as to ask you to stay?
How are things in heaven, Mike?
Is it all that you dreamed, all that you expected?
Can you talk to me now,
can you tell me how you’re doin’?
I really wanna know what it’s like for you in heaven.
Can you feel all our love, is it enough to see you through?
Does it feed your soul, nourish and make you whole,
or is it just another part of you?
I bet you miss your kids almost more than you can bear.
When they go to sleep at night,
do they know that you are there?
Can they feel your touch when you tuck them into bed?
Do you hold them close when their tears are being shed?
Can they feel your caress as you kiss their tears away?
Do they hear your voice when you whisper,
“I Love You so much more, dear ones.
You know I’m here to stay,
I haven't really gone away.”
Do you have any regrets of anything you’ve done?
Perhaps something you didn’t do while you lived here under the sun?
What do you feel toward those who betrayed you?
Is forgiveness just that easy when you're an angel of virtue?
How do you atone for things you may have done wrong?
And how do you love the ones who can’t bear that you are gone?
So many around the world have cried a million tears.
I don’t think we’ll ever heal.
We miss you so much, my dear!
If you really are right here with us all along,
I wanna know…
Do you ever walk on the beach alone
and wish you could connect?
Share a love you’ve never known
with someone you respect?
Do you dream about a love you lost,
or one you never had?
Is it one of those things you never get over,
or do you just accept that it wasn’t all that?
They say that heaven is right here on earth,
that we don’t even see it right before our eyes!
Is that true, Michael?
Is it just a different kind of birth?
Are you right here beside me whenever I imagine?
Can I reach out and touch you whenever I want?
And when I do…
Will I be in heaven too?
01/01/11
Copyright © 2011 by Charlene Burgess
Beautiful Charlene. The picture of the children looking up, so sweet. I am sure they know he is with them. He has always been one to push the limits, I'm sure he still is! Thanks for sharing with us.
ReplyDeleteL.O.V.E. Brenda
Thank you Brenda...
ReplyDeleteI agree with you about the children. I am certain they can feel his presence every single day. Hey, if most of us do, why not them who he was closest to in life? They were the true loves of his life, I do believe!
L.O.V.E. to you too, dear friend,
~ Charlene ~
Mabi said (via facebook)...
ReplyDeleteOh my God, Char...It´s so beautiful...My tears run on my face only imagining how it could be...Here beside me...
Today I was thinking about you and your writings. We are connecting, are we?
Maybe Michael does too...
These days are so sad for me because of the trial and your poem makes me feel better. Thank you so much my dear sis.
God bless you.♥
Dear Char, yesterday morning, when I first received your mesage, I was thinking: mmmmm where is Char? I haven't hear about her for a whil, I beter send her a note, then openned the FB, and there you was....We are connected through God dear...This is not the first time I feel that....And of course it is for a reason.....
ReplyDeleteReading your beautiful poem, and I can feel how much love you feel for Michael ! It is amazing the tender sweetness you have in your heart for him...When I see true love I recognize it...
There is something I read, that comes out to my mind:
"Real value comes with madness . . . whoever finds love beneath hurt and grief disappears into emptiness with a thousand new disguises . . . When you feel your lips becoming infinite and sweet, like the moon in the sky, when you feel that spaciousness inside . . .
Something opens up our wings. Something makes
boredom and hurt disappear. Someone fills the cup in front of us. We taste only sacredness."
Thanks Char-Starlight for openning your beautiful heart and share your love with us, your love for Michael, increases mine...I feel each one of your words <3<3
Verónica
Veronica,
ReplyDeleteYour words are so beautiful and precious to me! Thank you - my heart is full - my cup runneth over and I taste only sacredness.
God Bless You, dear friend.
My love to you...
Char
Nancy "1" said (via facebook)...
ReplyDeleteThat is a beautiful poem!!! .
I love the way you say, "and when I do, will I be in heaven too?" It truly brought tears of love to my eyes.
Nancy "2" said (via facebook)...
ReplyDeleteStarlight, I can feel your 'angst in the unknowing' of whatever is the realm of Michael's current existance and ability to be aware of us here and to connect with us. I know you are lonely for him. You connected to him in your heart, mind, creativity, and soul, and now you want to keep feeling him. You want confirmation that you are feeling him...that there is a tangible way to measure it, weigh it, prove it. That is the way of man. Michael is in the spiritual plane and these infantile ways of man are no longer applicable. It's mystery. Human beings with all their devices want everything to be able to be proven. God must have known we would. He is bigger than all of this, therefore He makes full knowing impossible to mere mortals on purpose. Our scientists play God in many ways. Messing with DNA, devising ideas about right to life, right to death...all sorts of things. The ways of man. Should someone fully know what is on the other realm all they would concentrate on is finding a way to get there without doing the labors they need to do themselves. They would attempt short cuts. God must have also known how lazy people can be. All we can know is it is more magnificent than what we know now. All we can know is there is no pain. No tears. But by miracles we can know that there is still a connection that exists. We can know that God is paying attention and will send emissaries to do what they can if in His infinite wisdom that is what He decides is best. Believe in your feelings inside. That is where God put the device that isn't created or changed or transformed by man. The mysterious 'knowing' that you need to feel your place in the realm of 'here' simultaneously with the realm of 'there'. Your poem was very thought provoking and will make people open their minds to consider all of this too. There is a reason for mystery. Love you my dear Starlight! Thank you! Moonchild
Candy said (via facebook)...
ReplyDeleteMy Dear Charlene,
You certainly are the starlight in our lives. Thank you for his awesome poem. Brought tears in my eyes.
Love you,
Candy
PS: Nancy, what a beautiful analysis of the poem you made. Thank you. Your words Veronica are beautiful as well. God, I feel so lucky to be surrounded by such gifted people as you are.
Catherine said (via facebook)...
ReplyDeleteCharlene,
I have often wondered how Michael was doing. Such an odd thing to wonder...because I know he is with God. Surely, things are well with him as he is in the glorious presence of the Lord. What I really ask, is "Michael, do you miss us?" I speak to him, saying "Michael, we miss you so much". We will live our lives in the pathway God has ordered for us, and someday we will be together with Michael again. This is an endless love.
Nancy, I cannot tell you how greatly you inspire me. I think I can feel you when I read your words. Perhaps, because they are more than mere words. They are an arrow, that goes straight to my heart...piercing any and all that may be stony and unforgiving.
Thank you for that.
Angela said (via email)...
ReplyDeleteThank you so much for sharing. I appreciate all of your writings.
Angela
Bonnie said (via email)...
ReplyDeleteDear Charlene,
I think this is one of your best blogs ever. I also love the picture of the children looking up. Thank you for sharing this with me.
God Bless.
Love,
Bonnie
Hi, Char ... I promised I would make it back here to leave a comment on this post and here I am. Got a quiet minute or two.
ReplyDeleteMy overwhelming thought about your questions ... so many of them above ... is that a lot of them were answered in my Conversation #9. To me, that is awesome! And proved something ... I'm not totally sure what it proves, but it proves something.
Of course, so many of these questions are spoken of or about in my conversations ... it is an interesting phenomenon, isn't it. You left the comment: "get outa my mind" on my blog. LOL! So, I'm sure you feel the same way.
The consistency of the message is just mind-blowing, if you think about it.
He is here walking with you on the beach ... and whispering his love and care for all of us in the songs ... and in his messages to us in whatever way we are receiving them.
God bless him ... and you ... for this beautiful expression.
Jan
PS: Can I borrow the picture?
Dear Jan,
ReplyDeleteYes indeed, the synchronicity still abounds, doesn't it? Pretty amazing!! To me, what that says or proves is that we are getting the same messages from him in different ways. That is obvious. But when we express certain thoughts or ideas in our writing at the same time without knowing the other is doing the same, it really boggles the mind and makes me realize that his energy or expression is reaching each of us simultaneously. Now THAT, to me, is something that MUST be deliberate or divinely orchestrated. Our "Conductor of Souls" is directing this Symphony of Life which we are all a part of - bringing us together in perfect harmony. Wow! I feel so blessed to be a player in this beautiful music he is creating through us! And I thank you for being here with me. :)
God Bless you, my friend.
~ Char ~
PS: Of course, you can borrow any picture you'd like!
Dear Char,
ReplyDeleteFinally read your latest entry on you blog and it is so beautiful. Just mindblowing. It made me cry because you, and Jan as well in her conversations, express and receive what I feel in my heart of hearts to be true. So this is like a miracle of love from the heavens above, reaching and touching us here in our realm, in a connection of like-minded souls who look for the good in man rather than the bad, changing imperceptibly inside and reaching out. All because of Michael, we have connected and found each other, through our grief.
Can I post it at MJJC with the pictures ?
Thank you so much dear Char for your labor of love. God Bless You!
Elmira
Dear Elmira,
ReplyDeleteThank you so much for coming by and for your heartfelt comments! This 'labor of love' is an honor for me. I am happy when others find personal meaning and hope in the words I write. And our connection through Michael continues to bless my life every day! I'm so glad to be a part of it with you, my friend.
Love and Blessings,
~ Char ~
Betty said (via email)...
ReplyDeleteThank you for your beautiful writing. You always express the LOVE we have for MJ so perfectly. Thank you for continuing to share your heart.
LOVE & blessings,
Betty